Yesterday was 100 days sober. I’m celebrating by launching this blog officially into the world. I’m also celebrating by listing the very best words that have touched my heart in the last 100 days. The tips & tricks that have kept me sane and sober. This is for today and this what works for my the very best. Here goes:
I heard this on HOME podcast, an episode that was recorded last year, but when I listened to quiet recently:
Come with every wound and every woman you’ve ever loved; every lie you’ve ever told and whatever it is that keeps you up at night. Every mouth you’ve punched in, all the blood you’ve ever tasted. Come with every enemy you’ve ever made and all the family you’ve ever buried and every dirty thing you’ve ever done; every drink that’s burnt your throat and every morning you’ve woken with nothing and no one. Come with all your loss, your regrets, sins, memories, black outs, secrets. I’ve never seen anything more beautiful than you. ~ Warsan Shire
This is a quote my friend sent to me that is currently my phone’s background, so I read it approximately a million times a day.
I want to think again of dangerous and noble things. I want to be light and frolicsome. I want to be important and beautiful and afraid of nothing as if I had wings. ~Mary Oliver
This is from part of a poem called “Could Have” by Wislawa Szymborska. I posted it the day before I put down the drink 100 days before this.
It could have happened. It had to happen. It happened earlier. Later. Nearer. Farther off. It happened, but not to you. You were saved because you were the first. You were saved because you were the last. Alone. With others. On the right. The left. Because it was raining. Because of the shade. Because the day was sunny. You were in luck — there was a forest. You were in luck — there were no trees. You were in luck — a rake, a hook, a beam, a brake. A jamb, a turn, a quarter-inch, an instant…
6 Things I Do To Stay Sober:
- Pray – I believe in God, I pray and talk and check-in with Her every single day, multiple times a day.
- Call my sponsor – I call a woman I trust every single day even if I have nothing to say.
- Write a gratitude list – I’ve been writing a gratitude list since January 1st, so pretty much all of my sobriety. It’s a creative outlet for me. It’s my spark. I love it.
- Attend AA meetings – It’s where the shit gets real, where I can share, help, and feel loved unconditionally.
- Listen to HOME Podcast – These two ladies crack me up! Listen to them. Follow them on the social media. Really, you’ll thank me.
- Read memoirs written by other sober, struggling ladies like: Blackout, Drink, Lit, Abandon Me, Traveling Mercies. And others. Read Rumi and Mary Oliver too.
What words bring you home? Do you have rituals that help you stay sane and sober? Please share them with me.